The World
In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere
The town that forgot sense, the future told by the fruit
The present (now) distorted black, dreams changing into ideals
How? Am I the broken savior?
Everyone wished for "The last scene" (the end)
In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere
Someday I’ll show you a shining sky
How? Am I the broken savior?
Everyone dreamt of a "paradise garden"
In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere
Some day I’ll show you a shining world
Alumina
To engrave this world’s memories, Twinkling, In flowing time, transiently sparkling
I’ll keep on walking like a BELIEVER
I see a dream no one else can see, I threw away all the things I don’t need
The feelings I can’t give up, I’ll keep them in this chest
Even if I’m stuck in the loophole of reality and ideals
and if I have to sacrifice my feet to shackles
I still can’t just stop this flooding impulse, because my heart screams for it
"lies" "fear" "affection" "sorrow" all negative things,
I’m not weak enough to give into them. I’m a TRICKSTER who doesn’t know loneliness
A group of buildings pierce the night sky Looking up at the universe, I can’t see the stars
I question myself "aren’t you reluctant?"
All the things that flood through this town, I don’t need to be affected by them
Heading to the future at the end of this street, because I want to see what this hand will grasp
I close my eyelids, floating through the sea of my consciousness
To the day when I obtain that imagined ideal
Accepting a limited "life" in this world is just as stupid as dying
The thing that no one else can have, To the crystal called "myself"
Piercing the whitewash, Someday things will change to truth
I want to keep on believing stubbornly IT’S JUST MY FAITH. THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH.
To engrave this world’s memories, Twinkling, In flowing time, transiently sparkling
I’ll keep on walking like a BELIEVER
Message
By the cold winter breeze i got a vital sign from a friend
I felt like
hearing his familiar voice.
At the familiar street
I found myself again,
also us as younger boys
who smiled brightly.
My heart got hurt and i'm used to loosing something.
The glint got lost.
I'm no more the one
who used to live an obedient life.
The city which was attractive to us in the past,
seems to have lost its meaning sometime.
I want to go back to those banal days.
I had friends
with whom i wanted to be forever and they also with me.
If I only could meet them again
we hopefully could smile as innocent as in the old days.
As time went by i forgot about the treasure
that you gave me
i think you, who's face i see in the sky, are crying
By the cold winter breeze i got a vital sign from a friend.
I felt like
hearing his song which is that familiar to me.
I have no scruples
about hurting or hating anyone.
I'm no more the one
who used to live an obedient life.
I had friends
with whom i wanted to be forever and they also with me.
If i only could meet them again
we hopefully could smile as innocent as in the old days.
As time went by i forgot about the treasure
that you gave me
I think you, who's face i see in the sky, are crying.
There is still a wound in my heart
But i wont to made you sad
you who's face i see in the sky
I still stick to the past i threw away
So the clock begins to tick.
Varuna
That flying form
Its brilliance, its wounds
The memories you painted that time
Now I see the colours you made it
In order to protect the you who seemed ready to fall apart
I spread my slightly anxious wings
I would gamble anything, suffer anything
If the pain would be felt more quickly
That flying form
Its brilliance, its wounds
In order to make your wishes come true
To rest my wings by your side
So that these thoughts would reach you
I painted my heart's wings a definite colour
Carved it into my heart
Up until now, and forever on
You should see the light
You should have seen the light
Kuyuru
Also in senseless and airy conversations i talked about my dream vividly
the sign that makes me return to myself before i am becoming completely soiled
i try to give a sense to my former immaturity (Unreife)
the immaturity that makes me believe in an fake paper-mâché tiger idol
the bureaucracy forgets to improve itself
more than ever i feel like a herectic. please erase it.
i want to go back but i can't. untouched sepia
a silent voice commands me to face the grave confrontation
listen to the voice hiding innermost
please don't forget the first abrasion
there is still a little of the chance, that everybody always has thereby
i ask for the ideal, dance around and beam. never ever...
the present entwines my legs. but i want to break free
my will follows the direction that i head for
concept, breakdown, talent, appearance
SHIAN
I've lost sight of it before
it will probably continue on forever
It's just repeated over and over
the foolish drama script
I lost it while still not knowing
a dream that should have been unshakeable
I can no longer turn back
a dog abandoned in the era
I counted the drifting nights I searched for a reason there
In the emptiness of living
I chopped myself up
Without understanding the future or reality the seasons flow
I saw a dream once
it shined brightly and I smiled
I can no longer smiled as I did in those pure days
Suddenly it passed me
the cold air of a dead leaf's scent
I realized the shortness of the time I have left
In the drifting powder snow what is there that I can do?
And in the shining brilliance of the you I met the clouded sky covered the sun
Why am I still burned though we're separated far apart?
I met you only that
I remember in life no matter how cruel it is
This unalterable distance a love beneath glass
A clouded sky the you lost in fog
They start again the meaningless distorted days...shian
I've lost sight of it before
it will probably continue on forever
It's just repeated over and over
the foolish drama script
I lost it while still not knowing
a dream that should have been unshakeable
I can no longer turn back
a dog abandoned in the era
I counted the drifting nights I searched for a reason there
In the emptiness of living
I chopped myself up
Without understanding the future or reality the seasons flow
I saw a dream once
it shined brightly and I smiled
I can no longer smiled as I did in those pure days
Suddenly it passed me
the cold air of a dead leaf's scent
I realized the shortness of the time I have left
In the drifting powder snow what is there that I can do?
And in the shining brilliance of the you I met the clouded sky covered the sun
Why am I still burned though we're separated far apart?
I met you only that
I remember in life no matter how cruel it is
This unalterable distance a love beneath glass
A clouded sky the you lost in fog
They start again the meaningless distorted days...
Neoteny
A grey crowd picks me on my nose
in the dry wind
sometimes ago i had an ideal or an illusion
but only the misery remains here
a dream, isn't it ideal?
i can't see what is important in this cold world
a gem, which everyone carries in his soul
don't lose it
don't forget it
to all adults who dissipate their energy with the question "what is life"?
and thus who forgot their right way
can you remember?
all that time you were brilliant
and fraught with innocence
a gem, which everyone has in his soul
don't lose it
remember it
let's go to the elapsing time
and leave there only nonessentials
livEVIL
Those glorious days
that white clear place
the time has come to get back both of it
i hear the loud palpatation of life
when i decided to stand on my own loneliness
the mist floating in the brilliant air
casts a black shade shadow-
as a weakness grows in your mind
loneliness sears the heart
i survive by throwing away my never returning past
my taers must be going to permeate the dry soil
and harden it some day
lets go now keeping the shine and shadow on our breast
this rolling disappearing figure!
this spread injured black wings!
the thought that files straight to the end of the night sky
Raven Loud speeeaker
When the time goes by...is it going to disappear? is it going to be lost? is it going to be lost?
what will the swingíng clouds hide? the sin, you, the days?
fortress lined up with no space in between. the end of the ideal
everything has disappeared, became derelict and cold
holding your hand i walked helplessely through the chaotic fireblades
there you were attacked by the virulent claws of time
it dawns. i kick the ground feeling distorted and torn
the sun rises when i am announcing the liberation once again
how many times did i had to cry because of many excuses and lies?
the night and the blather - nonsense!
i don't need it anymore
how worthy is such a civilisation at all
which is built from deceptions
i am crying and looking for an answer
which cannot be found yet
it dawns. i kick the ground feeling distorted and torn
the sun rises when i am announcing the liberation once again
give a death to the dead time!
Jashin To Bara
A little thought
forming the beginning
im not able to sppress
the burgeons of the evil
"let me see the end of your soul"
the false god whispered tenderly and sweetly
we couldnt trust each other
and now im wielding an empty power
it livens up the colour of
a dead view
i ask myself since when i always forget
to think of anyone else
the mutual destroying in a small world
theres no hopeful tomorrow
so i surrendered myself to the destruction created by an evil god
a blooming flower which couldn't refuse the colour
due to its clearness
the evil god and roses
we couldnt trust each other
and now im wielding an empty power
this shaking world
moans because of us
when i recognized it, i forget who i am
even now i dont know
the darkness that covers my broken person
is smiling silently
i ask myself since when i always forget
to think of anyone else
the broken heart will never be dressed
G i a n i s m Roku
A crimson dream which melted into the darkness of darkness
not able to find the dead spirit in a ghost city
my blood is crying, my heart is beating loud
i spit out my loneliness and shout myself hoarse
the thing that i hold tight in my hand shines upon the future
i'm ready to sacrifice myself for the return of the sun
a higher status than now, a higher honour than now, more capitals than now
more sorrows than now, more bitterness than now and more brilliant than now
red mono - violet mono - mind mono - more red mono
it's fix and never will be changed
humanity, warning, nothingness
i am holding the freedom
humanity, warning, nothingness
want to become a thief
humanity, warning, nothingness
i wear away my life
humanity, warning, nothingness
and get to the top
my blood is crying, my heart is beating loud
i spit out my loneliness and shout myself hoarse
the flame of my heart burns everything
i let nobody disturb this absolute force
the thing that the thing that i hold tight in my hand shines upon the future
i'm ready to sacrifice myself for the return of the sun
Sessou
The snow which falls on my hands
heathens my deeply frozen body
im still seeing a vision of the beautiful days that you gave me
those were solid days and these durable memories come back to me vividly
i still eager to see you so much that i cannot sleep
you blend into the shiny cityscape
like melting snow
the shine just poured on my palm
rapes everything and gravely injures my heart
do you still remember that promise?
we vowed eternal love
when i close my eyes, i can clearly see those happy days
i still eager to see you so much that i cannot sleep
in spite of changing seasons
this thought will never fade
you left a lot of tenderness
i looked up into the sky that linked me to you
and waited forever
but you came back no more
Mahora
I don't see your shadow on our future way
time goes by without mercy
there are too many holes in my heart to count
unreasonableness becomes visible a little as night slowly closes in
an ordinary flower sometimes doesn't flourish
there i get hugged by loneliness
it seems to me as if i was left behind on the world on my own
these days, mwhen i cried bitterly.
now im beginning to understand the meaning
your silent "good bye"
that was the only chance
if only i could see you in my dreams
its just an empty desire
end end . something you left behind as a surrogate for you
showed me to me one important thing
please please. i dearly wish
that this thought can reach you
in the hindmost corner of the rainy city
happens the story that no one knows about
Rakuu
Time of blooming...
it will pass by.
our lifetime...later it will pass by...like the flower
i can neither have a wish nor hope
but a dream
"promised". someday i will surely open my eyes.
my hands are holding these wings
and i cannot fly with them yet so i just walk now
but im sure that someday the wind will blow
and i will be able to fly away
i was concealing some of my memories
that i din't want to tell to anyone
"now i can tell them to someone". so i secretly make a song
ah, as a child i always was closed
no one stood by my side
so i was alone
and crying all the time
but these days passed by
there are only moments...
like a drop
that falls and flows along
this is my flower
my hands are holding these wings
and i cannot fly with them yet so i just walk now
but im sure that someday the wind will blow
and push me forward
thats the moment im waiting for
wings only for the moment to fly
surely i will fly away
Jibun no Hana
Every time a petal fell i cried
i sigh again, when i suddenly remember the past
you who compulsorily drags my hand is me
i looked upon the whitely hazy sky and sought my destination
that childish impulse was aesthetic. flower of my time
i hustled my life, so that the light went out.
i will rather take a dream in myhand than looking for the lost light
i get away from tepid memories
ah, im sure that every accumulation of single dust particles has a meaning
si i meditate and keep it in my heart
soul and body entwine around each other and bind
i feel something and use it to overcome the following time
i open the door without looking back
the fog that sorrounded me has disappeared
the way i ought to go is clearly visible. now the whitely lazy sky looks beautiful somehow
i feel like having decided my form
a true flower, independent from time, which will remain forever
Nazuki
I devoted a grain from my chest to heaven’s breeze
even my voice can’t be heard, it completely vanished to that blue distance too
Trickles spilled down and soon gathered to become rain
so it would become an everlasting rainbow, I whispered these feelings’ words
But then in the never-ending time, I’m puzzled, catching clouds
Still, I’m bound in a nightmare, I can’t wake up
Coz vriez tumiy Res tamer steeraw Wors gibmy somworrl forouse
Ai row nesdraik enknoul wiz mowa
Dreth foltrey Quis nerzarey Neu phitropie nel graill
Lalaruno LUV to qualtu lay *
In a colour, all reflection changes soon, I know this world’s kind of logic
In the current of the cold time, crickets chirp
In eternity, the end is just twinkling
In that little light, there’s still a fire shining
Coz vriez tumiy Res tamer steeraw Wors gibmy somworrl forouse
Ai row nesdraik enknoul wiz mowa
Dreth foltrey Quis nerzarey Neu phitropie nel graill
Lalaruno LUV yuu
Everything I've accepted is just too much, but I can’t spit it out
my hesitant heart of now
a sigh in the pure white summer washed it away
into the air where there’s no clouds
BOYS BE SUSPICIOUS
A distortion felt by one lone boy
I know this world’s unpainted face
"everyone has started to die"
Throbbing beats, moving in itself,
For a clear tomorrow
I clasped the KNIFE
It’s the SIGNAL
I’m a CHAMELEON who walks alone clumsily
I know now that emptiness will blend with my surrounding’s colours
The modern time’s expression = an Imitation of the present times
Implicitly a DEFAULT abuse of the STANDARD
A mass production of EPIGONE*
this kind of SYSTEM
There must be something that even I can do
Because I’d hate to just die in a birdcage
(From the time I was born on this earth, I carried suspicion
While pretending not to see it, I carried on walking without knowing what’s right.
But the value of standards were decided by human beings after all, weren’t they?
So whatever is honest in your heart. That’s what becomes right.)
If there’s only one thing that you can wish for
I’d want to know the answer of who I am
the boy keeps grasping the shaking hand
Something I still can’t see, I’m struggling to catch it
and from here on the JUVENILES start
I’m broken if I don’t escape from here
To rise
*EPIGONE = an imitator or follower of something
PHANTOM
Please give the power to me now
To protect the light of tomorrow
To limit the time
An “oath” will sit in heaven, together with you
shining
Criminal baby
say if the morning doesn’t come
And I’m swallowed in the darkness of eternity like this,
In this kind of world’s last moments
I wonder what kind of words I’ll spew out?
The stars disappeared in the speckled sky
floating away, the countless past
After the sacrifice, the destroyed earth
spells out a SCENARIO full of wounds
then a little bit, a little more, weak cries
dance out of my chest, and are swallowed by the night breeze
I can’t love again in the start of the end
I’m missing you, an EGOIST who can’t be rescued
Sadness in the quiet night
The future which disappeared, there’s no remainder
the scene completely changed and laughs at the present time
after the sacrifice, the destroyed earth
spells out a SCENARIO full of wounds
then a little bit, a little more, weak cries
dance out of my chest, and are swallowed by the night breeze
I can’t love again in the start of the end
I’m missing you, an EGOIST who can’t be rescued
Sadness in the quiet night
aa, what this nightmare told me, I can’t laugh
and the everyday that I got used to, the sky of the town I got used to
I can’t go back again, in the beginning of the end
clinging to something, The loneliness fades away
sadness in the quiet night
ALICE
Apterous angel with a lack of stability here
apterous ANGEL cried out in her heart
apterous ANGEL the meanings of words completely disappear into the empty sky
truehearted LIAR in an unstoppable desire
truehearted LIAR so many things buried
truehearted LIAR reflected in sympathy
stained with a sad colour
reflected in the mirror, an expressionless face
failing IRONY In one container
failing IRONY Two different feelings
failing IRONY these incompatible things
seem to be running her down
running through her head, twin thoughts
deeply eternal, you started to ignore it
you’ve lost your way, running after the clock in the hole
ALICE can’t get away
JEKYLL or HYDE, heterokaryon* dances
clowning with CHARISMA
genuine CRAZINESS surely, now you’re
genuine CRAZINESS In the middle of a contradiction
genuine CRAZINESS you ask yourself the true meaning of your existence
blustery EGO I don’t see the end of it
blustery EGO it’s not like a nightmare
blustery EGO it’s just an obvious situation
where the night will never see day either
To the other side of the darkening colour
the swirling emotions won’t mix, each and every feeling,
I don’t want to just accept I felt a little synchronization
however much I deny it, it’ll never change, there is one reality
and If I can find a way to revive the meaning of existence
I want to forget the past
* heterokaryon = A cell with two separate nuclei formed by the experimental fusion of two genetically different cells.
CREVASSE
When I stretched my hand out you were there
In my heart, you were still there
why did you tell me we had to separate?
even now I still don’t understand
In the end, in this world, my thoughts are running
in the colourless scenery
repeats of you
the tears of time reawaken it
it can pass by as if nothing ever happened
But I can’t just forget it
I resurrect the colours
When I stretched my hand out you were there
In my heart, you were still there
bit by bit, the days passed
gently, the sunlight starts to shine
the tears of time reawaken it
it can pass by as if nothing ever happened
the tears of time bloom a flower
I start to recall all the beautiful memories
that sunlight is the same as the flower’s colour
and I still see you clearly
Age 18
Without even getting a say in the rules that adults decided
Only anger and emptiness came up in my chest
Though my anxiety won’t disappear, I’m always chasing after a dream,
While shaking with loneliness, there’s no limit in the blank future
I hold onto this vague course and advance forward
Without knowing anything, I believed in the uncertain tomorrow
I should run to the place where I can shine with my friends
I longed for that beautiful scenery in these hands
But it’s hard to live for yourself honestly
To get through a lifetime, strength isn’t enough
Because I’m not alone even if I part from you
Just don’t forget the promise, and dream of tomorrow
My thoughts overflow and I believe in these unstoppable feelings
Don't be sorry when I can’t come back again
I’ll let all I can do loose now
Because if you desire strongly enough, you can get closer in a dream
So that you don’t lose anybody, try to dream
I hold onto this vague course and advance forward
I believed in the uncertain tomorrow, without losing my way
These overflowing thought, this unstoppable beat
Even if the time and years flow by, I still won’t forget
I’ll carry on holding this unchanging dream
~lulu~
as they float in the blue night, the stars start to ask
“why do you always smile with that lonely seeming face?”
with my powerlessness, I wanted to cry, but
In my chest, in my heart, there are wings
when I close my eyes, show me the wind blowing through the town
and I’ll leave myself to this soft breeze lalalulalula…
gently, softly, now completely changes to the past
and some time, we’ll meet the end of time, right?
can I love this me?
this person, this star, can I love them?
strongly pray, wish, for the glittering days, the neverending dream
In the room, the morning sun rises, and I come to my senses, lalalulalula…
Gianism 7
I’ll show my completely unique figure here and now
That existence is the one and only in this world
Nothing but guys who don’t have themselves gather after all
So if I wake up now, there should still be time
What do I feel? what do I want?
Hide it in your chest and your soul will take the decisive action
You can exceed the possibilities you need
Carry the pride
even trivial matters, you make fun of
Whatever kind of boos I take, in my heart I won’t be confused
Get hold of the feelings of regret, for the power of tomorrow
I’ll carry on showing my own good faith and preparedness
I’ll go through the ideas that I imagined
Invite anger and embrace it in your chest
To the limit of forgetfulness, I’ll carve my name in this earth
Hide it in your chest and your mind will take decisive action
You can exceed the necessary possibilities
Carry the pride
Morpho
The days when I travel, without planning to go
Nothing but pretense, glorified with decorations, in this town
Though there is no actual form or shadow, there‘s still something to seize in your chest right?
The butterfly with blue wings now, rose into the sky right before my eyes
And that’s it, it’s a nothing special everyday scene
It carries no meaning, but a hint is being hidden
And if you find it, something should change
I was damaging that person, I hurt that person
In those days I tried to defend my body, spilling lies
I always combined our pace, pushed myself into a mould I can’t mix with
Only hard feelings overflow and I’m scared I gradually won’t be able to move
About the things I locked away, I want to cry now
I quietly put the ALBUM away, now, I’ll search for new scenery
I don’t need an adaptation of the same photograph
Because I don't want to hurt anyone, I put it all away in my heart
And I know that nothing will change, but
Even though my head understands, My body doesn’t move with my thoughts
I couldn’t like this kind of ‘me’
Tomorrow’s tomorrow, and the tomorrow after, it’s just repetition of the same days
It’s boring isn’t it? To live when you can’t see the meaning
It’s amazing it‘s such a common thing, and I don’t like spelling the words
But I’ll leave them here, Because there’s a time when I’ll need them
Black sick Spider
Complete darkness spreads, dyed in black, I see this sad world’s end
Entertained in threads of CHAOS, the SPIDER slips out, hunting butterfly’s wings
I tell DRAMATIC ideals
This vice of boasting won’t stop, and even now that won’t change
I want to hide my ugly body
It’s been decorated with the wings I plucked off
Beautiful speckles, the colour of life
I’ve lost something, something’s broken
While frozen, I’m scared in this darkness
Even though I have everything
In this world, I am alone
And I can’t return to the clear skies