NIGHTMARE - ナイトメア

Akane

 

 A side of you completely changed
The tears of suffering and troubles drained
An important thing which I don't want to hurt
The vibrating balance of my heart won’t stop

Whenever the sky gets dark, it becomes very beautiful
The illusion confuses me

stained with dark red, I become confused
My mind doesn’t shake
I say farewell to this town with no heart
I want to be reborn

(yurari) Shaking in twilight
Like this, I can’t sleep I can’t sleep
(yurari) A vague sensation shaking
I pretended not to notice this thought

Casually, this thing resided in my chest
I want to continue being a captive of confusion

Again, dusk is stained dark red
And I remember
Looking up at the sky, there’s one person I can’t reach
Emptiness overflows

(yurari) Shaking in twilight
Like this, I can’t sleep I can’t sleep
(yurari) A vague sensation shaking
I pretended not to notice this thought

 

 

ALICE

 

 

BOYS BE SUSPICIOUS

 

 

 Backstreet children

 

Now, shall we go out into town?
Today’s 'me' has the highest spirit (is the worst in high spirits)
Don’t you want to sip the sweet honey to the limit of love and desire?
The way for everyone is open
I walk over a crimson carpet
At any moment I’ll jump out of this thought
and the dice will tell tomorrow

Like a child, you don't need to think about such troubles!!!!!
The lights turn on and the dazzling neon street of paradise opens in front of me
But is the cold of winter and the loneliness in my chest to be forgotten?

It’s always different to this decrepit town’s void
I finished being dirty so as to be beautiful
Where will I arrive? 

 

 

Dasei Boogie 

 

An accidental thing, The figure reflected in the window of my consciousness printed on my mind
a wave of overflowing information which kept shooting my heart
The love found in the crevice is the only language supply of shared time

The pain in my chest desires that, like 0 to 1,
I will send this rose to you right now
Share this thought

I watched a beautiful dream and have forgotten reality
Ringed sentiment of a person living in the virtual world is going around and around
Where will it continue turning around to?

Where are you (repeats)

The thread breaks off but your words are saved, Protocol has disappeared
The capacity of sadness overflows and my heart gets wet.
I watched a beautiful dream and have forgot reality
Ringed sentiment temples circumference of a person living in the virtual world
It repeats itself again even if I stop

Washing over, words are put in order, I seek a moment of love
Stretched around the inside of the net, a mass of desire
The meaning of your words is equal to nothing

 

The World

 

In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere

The town that forgot sense, the future told by the fruit
The present (now) distorted black, dreams changing into ideals

How? Am I the broken savior?
Everyone wished for "The last scene" (the end)

In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere

Someday I’ll show you a shining sky

How? Am I the broken savior?
Everyone dreamt of a "paradise garden"

In the spreading darkness, I made a pledge for revolution
everywhere I go from here on
Evil flowers sprout from having loved
Because I can’t let anyone interfere

Some day I’ll show you a shining world

Alumina

 

To engrave this world’s memories, Twinkling, In flowing time, transiently sparkling
I’ll keep on walking like a BELIEVER

I see a dream no one else can see, I threw away all the things I don’t need
The feelings I can’t give up, I’ll keep them in this chest

Even if I’m stuck in the loophole of reality and ideals
and if I have to sacrifice my feet to shackles
I still can’t just stop this flooding impulse, because my heart screams for it

"lies" "fear" "affection" "sorrow" all negative things,
I’m not weak enough to give into them. I’m a TRICKSTER who doesn’t know loneliness

A group of buildings pierce the night sky Looking up at the universe, I can’t see the stars
I question myself "aren’t you reluctant?"

All the things that flood through this town, I don’t need to be affected by them
Heading to the future at the end of this street, because I want to see what this hand will grasp

I close my eyelids, floating through the sea of my consciousness
To the day when I obtain that imagined ideal

Accepting a limited "life" in this world is just as stupid as dying
The thing that no one else can have, To the crystal called "myself"

Piercing the whitewash, Someday things will change to truth
I want to keep on believing stubbornly IT’S JUST MY FAITH. THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH.

To engrave this world’s memories, Twinkling, In flowing time, transiently sparkling
I’ll keep on walking like a BELIEVER

 

To For

 

It’s not over, the cold time, it’s not over, the freezing spiral of darkness
It won’t stop, the carving needle, the end of a meaningless time

So that tomorrow won’t come…I’m shaking in the middle of a deep dream
If I could disappear without any explanation
Because the end is scary

If I’m strong
Will I see the future spent with you?
Because I had many dreams of you
But this is already the end..

So that tomorrow won’t come…I’m shaking in the middle of a deep dream
If I could disappear without any explanation
Because the end is scary

If I’m strong
Will I see the future spent with you?
Because I had many dreams of you
Still nothing is left behind

Even if the future vanishes
Even if this body vanishes
I won’t forget you

 

Flora

 

Look up at the clouded sky
The wind’s continued journey
To the ends of the earth
A beautiful flower blooms

I wait for your return for however long
We’ll surely meet again at this place

A time of tranquillity
Was held within you and slept
In the middle of the rotating seasons
Meeting, parting, dying

Light shone from the sky
A dancing petal fell

How long was it in the palm of my hand

A time of tranquillity
Was held within you and slept
In the middle of the rotating seasons
Meeting, parting, dying

A downpour of the height of sorrow
The wound that can never be deleted
I still live at your side
I continue fighting

A time of tranquillity
Was held within you and slept
At least in the end, I can see
A beautiful flower

 

 

Message

 

By the cold winter breeze i got a vital sign from a friend
I felt like
hearing his familiar voice.

At the familiar street
I found myself again,
also us as younger boys
who smiled brightly.

My heart got hurt and i'm used to loosing something.
The glint got lost.
I'm no more the one
who used to live an obedient life.

The city which was attractive to us in the past,
seems to have lost its meaning sometime.
I want to go back to those banal days.

I had friends
with whom i wanted to be forever and they also with me.
If I only could meet them again
we hopefully could smile as innocent as in the old days.

As time went by i forgot about the treasure
that you gave me
i think you, who's face i see in the sky, are crying

By the cold winter breeze i got a vital sign from a friend.
I felt like
hearing his song which is that familiar to me.

I have no scruples
about hurting or hating anyone.
I'm no more the one
who used to live an obedient life.

I had friends
with whom i wanted to be forever and they also with me.
If i only could meet them again
we hopefully could smile as innocent as in the old days.

As time went by i forgot about the treasure
that you gave me
I think you, who's face i see in the sky, are crying.

There is still a wound in my heart
But i wont to made you sad
you who's face i see in the sky

I still stick to the past i threw away
So the clock begins to tick.

 

Varuna

 

That flying form
Its brilliance, its wounds

The memories you painted that time
Now I see the colours you made it
In order to protect the you who seemed ready to fall apart
I spread my slightly anxious wings

I would gamble anything, suffer anything
If the pain would be felt more quickly

That flying form
Its brilliance, its wounds

In order to make your wishes come true
To rest my wings by your side
So that these thoughts would reach you
I painted my heart's wings a definite colour

Carved it into my heart
Up until now, and forever on

You should see the light
You should have seen the light

 

 

HATE

 

A town where positive interests* become impure,
The last thread was cut calmly too
Even your words of several minutes ago
The speckled pattern dissolves and spreads

Even if I’m said to "be dirty"
My chest is not so weak as to ache
Desire powerfully overtakes
The charisma of the evil in the world is unrivaled

I walk a thorny path with my shoes on
I can’t say the true intention of the back of a mask

I am a crybaby, shaking in the darkness
Ah, why? I can’t shout for love
Listen, listen, my voice is weaker than everyone else’s
Ah, why?
It always passes and repeats

I can’t talk to anyone, I can’t show anyone
Will my last moment be alone too?

I am a crybaby shaking in darkness
Ah, why? I can’t shout for love
Listen, listen, my voice is weaker than everyone else’s
Ah, why?
It always passes and repeats

An irritating monologue repeats itself **
Ah, you broke the sadness
The feelings that I threw away arose* on my chest and
Ah, a pretty flower is opened and scattered


* It means breath too ( basically a town where good things become impure)
**He actually means questioning yourself all the time (repeats) but wording it, I used 'monologue'
***I said 'arose', but the word is like "buds" (like a flower), which is why he says about the flower being opened afterwards.

 

Travel

 

For example, if I have a wing in my mind/heart no matter how fragile,
I won’t be afraid of confinement in a box.

Vertically carving in the window
A star visible in the night sky,
It vanishes in the sea’s mud and white turns to black in the same place.*

I am surrounded by lies, shaded values and forced smiles/laughs.
Light, a dream, and the language to wish.

If pain is felt I should be able to shed tears and return to myself
Then I can start to walk on foot

The weak ether has disappeared
If the feeling in your chest was strong, surely you should create it again.

The dream I desired was recalled and I shook
I remembered you and the light,
forgetting the lies, the forced smiles/laughs and the shaded values.

You and I have won our desires at the end of this, by walking there.
Travel/This trip that had not been seen at first,
Yet we believe it now.

 

 

Kuyuru

 

Also in senseless and airy conversations i talked about my dream vividly
the sign that makes me return to myself before i am becoming completely soiled

i try to give a sense to my former immaturity (Unreife)
the immaturity that makes me believe in an fake paper-mâché tiger idol
the bureaucracy forgets to improve itself
more than ever i feel like a herectic. please erase it.

i want to go back but i can't. untouched sepia
a silent voice commands me to face the grave confrontation

listen to the voice hiding innermost
please don't forget the first abrasion

there is still a little of the chance, that everybody always has thereby
i ask for the ideal, dance around and beam. never ever...

the present entwines my legs. but i want to break free
my will follows the direction that i head for

concept, breakdown, talent, appearance

Star[K]night

 

When I extend my hand into this night sky
I can’t reach the mirage
The wings were ripped off my back
Without them I can’t fly to the past

I pursued freedom in search of a dream
Shaking in transient wind

The thing that you lost at that time
It became a star of the night sky over there
wet cheeks are now dry
Because I can flap now

I walk with one heart of mine
Bearing a pain to live

It lives in the depths of my heart
I wipe out the sorrow and it leaves,
piercing through the empty night sky
Where it’s able to fly forever,

 

 

Sekishoku

 

Mama continues waiting for the return of (now also our) child
Counting the era’s tears that sink in prayer

I grasped the pain to get rid of the guilt of a weak person
The ground’s pulse pauses and breaks off, coloured into vermilion, it fades before long

Transient quarrels give birth to sorrow
This wind carries that tune through mother’s chest

Printed on my eyes, the figure is separated
Valuable life is tragically scattered and becomes a star of the night sky for eternity

The dispute that much hatred swirls
Does it produce happiness?
Or pain?

Transient quarrels give birth to sorrow
This wind carries that tune and soars high

It’s frightening to close your eyes when you can’t sleep at night
Mother’s prayers’ does not reach our child’s thoughts

 

SHIAN

 

I've lost sight of it before
it will probably continue on forever
It's just repeated over and over
the foolish drama script
I lost it while still not knowing
a dream that should have been unshakeable
I can no longer turn back
a dog abandoned in the era

I counted the drifting nights I searched for a reason there

In the emptiness of living
I chopped myself up
Without understanding the future or reality the seasons flow

I saw a dream once
it shined brightly and I smiled
I can no longer smiled as I did in those pure days
Suddenly it passed me
the cold air of a dead leaf's scent
I realized the shortness of the time I have left

In the drifting powder snow what is there that I can do?

And in the shining brilliance of the you I met the clouded sky covered the sun
Why am I still burned though we're separated far apart?

I met you only that
I remember in life no matter how cruel it is
This unalterable distance a love beneath glass
A clouded sky the you lost in fog
They start again the meaningless distorted days...shian

I've lost sight of it before
it will probably continue on forever
It's just repeated over and over
the foolish drama script
I lost it while still not knowing
a dream that should have been unshakeable
I can no longer turn back
a dog abandoned in the era

I counted the drifting nights I searched for a reason there

In the emptiness of living
I chopped myself up
Without understanding the future or reality the seasons flow

I saw a dream once
it shined brightly and I smiled
I can no longer smiled as I did in those pure days
Suddenly it passed me
the cold air of a dead leaf's scent
I realized the shortness of the time I have left

In the drifting powder snow what is there that I can do?

And in the shining brilliance of the you I met the clouded sky covered the sun
Why am I still burned though we're separated far apart?

I met you only that
I remember in life no matter how cruel it is
This unalterable distance a love beneath glass
A clouded sky the you lost in fog
They start again the meaningless distorted days...

 

Neoteny

 

A grey crowd picks me on my nose
in the dry wind
sometimes ago i had an ideal or an illusion
but only the misery remains here

a dream, isn't it ideal?
i can't see what is important in this cold world

a gem, which everyone carries in his soul
don't lose it
don't forget it

to all adults who dissipate their energy with the question "what is life"?
and thus who forgot their right way

can you remember?
all that time you were brilliant
and fraught with innocence

a gem, which everyone has in his soul
don't lose it
remember it

let's go to the elapsing time
and leave there only nonessentials

 

livEVIL

Those glorious days
that white clear place
the time has come to get back both of it

i hear the loud palpatation of life
when i decided to stand on my own loneliness

the mist floating in the brilliant air
casts a black shade shadow-
as a weakness grows in your mind

loneliness sears the heart
i survive by throwing away my never returning past

my taers must be going to permeate the dry soil
and harden it some day

lets go now keeping the shine and shadow on our breast
this rolling disappearing figure!
this spread injured black wings!
the thought that files straight to the end of the night sky

 

落羽 Rakuu Hitsu

 

The time when flowers bloom in full glory
It also disappears in transience
The time that we live in
Disappears before long
Just like those flowers did

Neither a wish or hope I can have
Here, I just dream now
"I promise" Someday I’ll surely open my eyes

Holding the wings that can’t fly with both hands
Now I’m only walking
But when the day of blowing wind comes
I can fly if I need to.

Memories that can’t be said by anyone
are being held in my chest
"I can say it now" so I softly sing

Ah I was childish then
My heart was always closed
Nobody was by my side
solitude
I always cried at this place

At such a time, only then
In the way tears overflow
Visit it now
It’s my flower

Holding the wings that can’t fly with both hands
Now I’m only walking
But when the day of blowing wind comes
Someday, someday, I’ll push my back
I wait for the day

It’s just the time of the wings.

I can fly if I need to. 

 

Raven Loud speeeaker

 

When the time goes by...is it going to disappear? is it going to be lost? is it going to be lost?
what will the swingíng clouds hide? the sin, you, the days?
fortress lined up with no space in between. the end of the ideal
everything has disappeared, became derelict and cold

holding your hand i walked helplessely through the chaotic fireblades
there you were attacked by the virulent claws of time

it dawns. i kick the ground feeling distorted and torn
the sun rises when i am announcing the liberation once again

how many times did i had to cry because of many excuses and lies?
the night and the blather - nonsense!
i don't need it anymore

how worthy is such a civilisation at all
which is built from deceptions
i am crying and looking for an answer
which cannot be found yet

it dawns. i kick the ground feeling distorted and torn
the sun rises when i am announcing the liberation once again
give a death to the dead time!

 

Jashin To Bara

A little thought
forming the beginning
im not able to sppress
the burgeons of the evil

"let me see the end of your soul"
the false god whispered tenderly and sweetly

we couldnt trust each other
and now im wielding an empty power
it livens up the colour of
a dead view

i ask myself since when i always forget
to think of anyone else
the mutual destroying in a small world

theres no hopeful tomorrow
so i surrendered myself to the destruction created by an evil god

a blooming flower which couldn't refuse the colour
due to its clearness
the evil god and roses

we couldnt trust each other
and now im wielding an empty power
this shaking world
moans because of us

when i recognized it, i forget who i am
even now i dont know
the darkness that covers my broken person
is smiling silently

i ask myself since when i always forget
to think of anyone else
the broken heart will never be dressed

 

 Itsuka no boku he

 

On the ground at 4:00 am, peacefully, I felt nostalgia
I pulled the thread of memory, looking back in a daydream

I meet your shadow in the twilight I saw someday

If you noticed, I’ve changed, my heart’s become stained
"Painful…painful" a scream comes out
Is this practice for the end?
I’ve been injured, damaged, enough already right?
The scratched out words are out of reach.

I meet your shadow in the twilight I saw someday
I want to return.
If you noticed, you can’t find it anymore, it’s gone
Transparent eyes, a pure mind, that 'me' isn’t me now

I’ve been injured, damaged enough already right? the dream won’t come true
The beginning of the sky opens
The shadow of the boy who isn't stained is crying
"Can you see my tears?" 

Kyokutou ranshin tengoku

 

With a childish liking to tease, you laugh in innocence (sore)
Your words which seem to dance out of your chest are 8 or 9/10 a lie

But even if you betray me the lies will separate in exhaustion (sore)
I’m tangled in the thread of your fingertips and it won’t come loose

Separated from faith for eternity, The flower of desire dances..This town...

(Ah) time passes by all too soon, and I’m alone
(Ah) movement is put out in this world but it won’t stop

Faith in constant eternity. The flower of dreams scatters this town..

(Ah) time passes by all too soon, and I’m alone
(Ah) movement out in this world has stopped

(Ah) time passes by all too soon, before regret,
(Ah) I’ll continue to live in me
I’m not at a loss anymore....

 

 

G i a n i s m Roku

 

A crimson dream which melted into the darkness of darkness
not able to find the dead spirit in a ghost city

my blood is crying, my heart is beating loud
i spit out my loneliness and shout myself hoarse

the thing that i hold tight in my hand shines upon the future
i'm ready to sacrifice myself for the return of the sun

a higher status than now, a higher honour than now, more capitals than now
more sorrows than now, more bitterness than now and more brilliant than now

red mono - violet mono - mind mono - more red mono
it's fix and never will be changed

humanity, warning, nothingness
i am holding the freedom
humanity, warning, nothingness
want to become a thief
humanity, warning, nothingness
i wear away my life
humanity, warning, nothingness
and get to the top

my blood is crying, my heart is beating loud
i spit out my loneliness and shout myself hoarse

the flame of my heart burns everything
i let nobody disturb this absolute force

the thing that the thing that i hold tight in my hand shines upon the future
i'm ready to sacrifice myself for the return of the sun

 

Saiyuki

 

The sky is swallowed up in loneliness
The night chooses winter’s fragrance
I traced my back
My mouth can’t say goodbye

Your freedom and the future
I smashed it entirely
I noticed the separating distance

Indulgent suffocating love
Now time flows
The road continues to the far off past
Even if I count how many nights
The world won’t change

The shining dream of the world
Is distantly hazy
I pursue a fading shadow
My hand reaching out to the sky
My voice is withering
The song resounded in the empty sky

Embracing it tightly
Feeling warmth, I’m sure of drained tears
I won’t leave it anymore
Because I’ve become an adult

 

Shinjitsu no hana

 

The cold has become frozen
This earth has fallen into ruin
The seasons are passing
Still, spring does not come

Old thoughts stay constant
They remained inside of me

Many flowers will bloom on the day the earth forgets -- I believe that

Now, they merely sleep beneath the soil
Calmly waiting for spring

Many flowers will bloom on the day the earth forgets --

I believe in tomorrow

Spring is too far

But even a small metaphor
If it blooms in time
The dream will not wither

 

 

Sessou

 

The snow which falls on my hands
heathens my deeply frozen body

im still seeing a vision of the beautiful days that you gave me
those were solid days and these durable memories come back to me vividly

i still eager to see you so much that i cannot sleep
you blend into the shiny cityscape
like melting snow

the shine just poured on my palm
rapes everything and gravely injures my heart

do you still remember that promise?
we vowed eternal love
when i close my eyes, i can clearly see those happy days

i still eager to see you so much that i cannot sleep
in spite of changing seasons
this thought will never fade

you left a lot of tenderness
i looked up into the sky that linked me to you
and waited forever
but you came back no more

 

Mind Ocean

 

Even if I pray to the sky’s end, I won’t be rescued
Colouring the town, snow piles up
Even with this decorative light, colour fades, radiance grows dull

I knew a dream can’t be continued
Since I touched you
You showed it suddenly
The sign of demise, I can’t hide my puzzlement

Everything is already over
Even the traces of when I met you
The thing I could see from the beginning
Despair? The future without colour?

Even if I pray to the sky’s end, I won’t be rescued
Colouring the town, snow piles up
Even with this decorative light, colour fades, radiance grows dull
I will forget everything
Even that time I met you
What will be left behind after oblivion?
Dazzling dazzling memories?

Even if I pray to the sky’s end, I won’t be rescued
Colouring the town, snow piles up
Even with this decorative light, colour fades, radiance grows dull

In the stream of time, the meaning of goodbye is unravelled
Surely you’ll forget me?
Will I forget you, because we won‘t meet anymore? 

 

 

Mary

 

Feelings I discovered inside a shining town
Without exchanging even one word
All the time, staring at a smiling face in the tender spring scenery
A wish that will never come true

When flowers scatter and die, time appears
I’m always yearning with a smile
Everyday is like an empty dream
Please just leave it as it is.

Feelings I discovered inside a shining town
Without exchanging even one word
All the time, staring at a smiling face in the tender spring scenery
A wish that will never come true
will I understand if time passes by gradually?
A forced laugh gives me severe pain
Walking along, the air I feel is cold on my cheeks
The time up until now vanishes

However much my heart longs for your embrace
Distance does not change, even inside a dream
However much I’m yearning (to die) for it to end
It turns into an illusion too

The numb town where snow falls in the morning
It’s only your embrace I remember
White clear thoughts
Die and melt

 

Mahora

 

I don't see your shadow on our future way
time goes by without mercy

there are too many holes in my heart to count
unreasonableness becomes visible a little as night slowly closes in

an ordinary flower sometimes doesn't flourish
there i get hugged by loneliness
it seems to me as if i was left behind on the world on my own

these days, mwhen i cried bitterly.
now im beginning to understand the meaning

your silent "good bye"
that was the only chance
if only i could see you in my dreams
its just an empty desire

end end . something you left behind as a surrogate for you
showed me to me one important thing
please please. i dearly wish
that this thought can reach you

in the hindmost corner of the rainy city
happens the story that no one knows about

 

Rakuu

 

Time of blooming...
it will pass by.
our lifetime...later it will pass by...like the flower

i can neither have a wish nor hope
but a dream
"promised". someday i will surely open my eyes.

my hands are holding these wings
and i cannot fly with them yet so i just walk now
but im sure that someday the wind will blow
and i will be able to fly away

i was concealing some of my memories
that i din't want to tell to anyone
"now i can tell them to someone". so i secretly make a song

ah, as a child i always was closed
no one stood by my side
so i was alone
and crying all the time

but these days passed by
there are only moments...
like a drop
that falls and flows along
this is my flower

my hands are holding these wings
and i cannot fly with them yet so i just walk now
but im sure that someday the wind will blow
and push me forward
thats the moment im waiting for
wings only for the moment to fly
surely i will fly away

 

Raison D’etre

Ah　I’ve passed so many nights
with frozen dreams and faded tears
Warm me, Warm me, Wrap me
Even if I should have forgotten everything for a while
this hateful body, it can’t love anyone
no matter how far I keep walking, I can’t see the end
past’s memories in a travelling companion
What colours will this body be stained in?
I’m searching for the answers

I can’t go back to the day we parted again
The scars coming from deep within won’t disappear
Hide it, Hide it, Hide me
Stars I ripped out with both hands
one, I’ll send one back to the sky again
That time, I was weak and miserable
I lived without knowing anything
But still, I always dreamt of tomorrow
I counted the days on my fingers

such things like the meaning of life　It’s ok if you don’t know them
When a day comes when you can laugh
That day, in just one of your words
I had the feeling I could become strong

"Don’t change anything　It’s good how it is now" (you said)
and even now
because you are there, somewhere in my heart,　
I can carry on walking unconfused
You taught me it’s ok even if I couldn’t see the end
So I’ll carry on my journey as a stranger I don’t need to know the answers

Esaragota

 

 half asleep, the attacking army returns
A wave of memories, yearning
The roadside trees join the snow in color
My heart aches in the visit of winter

Color fades in time’s stream
Two people’s layered desires
“how?“
The cogs went mad
Vivid memories…
Completely fabrication

"good-bye"
Come now, shall we end with this?
Licking each others’ wounds only out of love
when did it change? Your desires
It seems the period of two people got worn out and died

Color fades in time’s stream
Two people painted tomorrow
“how?“
The cogs went mad
Vivid memories…
Completely fabrication

This is all destroyed
But I can be at ease
If everyday spent with you
Is thrown away

"I'm sorry...I can't pray for your happiness"

 

Underdog

 

I won’t be confused in a town too noisy
I locked up my heart
In the days that passed busily, I saw
A dream that became stained

My colour is different to all the others
I struggled within the crowd
I have nothing to rely on
Only myself

The sadness can’t come through this thought

I won’t be confused in a town too noisy
I locked up my heart
In the days that passed busily, I saw
A dream that became stained

After all, everyone only takes care of themselves
My real face, I won’t show it to my surroundings
It will spread gentleness
A hypocritical face

My heart’s voice, I hid with this sigh

I won’t be confused in a town too noisy
I locked up my heart
In the days that passed busily, I saw
Darkness

But I’m a weakling, stained with the colours of this town
To go on living
All the things reflected in my eyes, all I saw is false
uncertain days

 

 

Promenade

 

 ARKHIN try to leave it alone
Aa the merry-go-round continues rotating
ARKHIN until my heart has enough
Aa carved deep in the chest

ARKHIN consumes my heart
Aa this twisted… monochrome
ARKHIN this setting has died out
Aa sparkling understanding darkens

Let me forget anything and everything
Now, I only see a “dream”
Just to distract myself from sadness
I’ll be at your side

 

Remembrance

 

Aa Wind dried with white hazy breath
Aa Where did it disappear to? blue, an initial impulse without a lie

shaking, I shook to the limit, I chose the faint dream’s end that I’m used to

The sand’s weak soul collapsed
There's no way back, and I can’t go forward either
Oh, when did it change?
Oh, I grieved in the night

I reached it at last after a struggle
The good old small park

shaking, I shook with the end reward, I chose the delicious dream’s end that I’m used to

The sand’s weak soul collapsed
There's no way back, and I can’t go forward either
Oh, when did it change?
Oh, I grieved in the night

Before long, the last moment of this life will come
staring at only a memory that blooms in the night
To the far-off future me who grew old I can ask
"Is there a meaning beyond this?"

 

Jibun no Hana

 

Every time a petal fell i cried
i sigh again, when i suddenly remember the past

you who compulsorily drags my hand is me

i looked upon the whitely hazy sky and sought my destination
that childish impulse was aesthetic. flower of my time

i hustled my life, so that the light went out.
i will rather take a dream in myhand than looking for the lost light

i get away from tepid memories

ah, im sure that every accumulation of single dust particles has a meaning
si i meditate and keep it in my heart

soul and body entwine around each other and bind
i feel something and use it to overcome the following time
i open the door without looking back

the fog that sorrounded me has disappeared
the way i ought to go is clearly visible. now the whitely lazy sky looks beautiful somehow
i feel like having decided my form

a true flower, independent from time, which will remain forever

 

Nazuki

 

I devoted a grain from my chest to heaven’s breeze
even my voice can’t be heard, it completely vanished to that blue distance too

Trickles spilled down and soon gathered to become rain　

so it would become an everlasting rainbow, I whispered these feelings’ words

But then in the never-ending time, I’m puzzled, catching clouds
Still, I’m bound in a nightmare, I can’t wake up

　Coz vriez tumiy Res tamer steeraw Wors gibmy somworrl forouse
　Ai row nesdraik enknoul wiz mowa
　Dreth foltrey Quis nerzarey Neu phitropie nel graill
　Lalaruno LUV to qualtu lay *

In a colour, all reflection changes soon, I know this world’s kind of logic
In the current of the cold time, crickets chirp

In eternity, the end is just twinkling
In that little light, there’s still a fire shining

　Coz vriez tumiy Res tamer steeraw Wors gibmy somworrl forouse
　Ai row nesdraik enknoul wiz mowa
　Dreth foltrey Quis nerzarey Neu phitropie nel graill
　Lalaruno LUV yuu

Everything I've accepted is just too much, but I can’t spit it out
my hesitant heart of now
a sigh in the pure white summer washed it away
into the air where there’s no clouds

 

PHANTOM

 

Please give the power to me now
To protect the light of tomorrow
To limit the time
An “oath” will sit in heaven, together with you

shining

 

Criminal baby

 

say if the morning doesn’t come
And I’m swallowed in the darkness of eternity like this,
In this kind of world’s last moments
I wonder what kind of words I’ll spew out?

The stars disappeared in the speckled sky
floating away, the countless past
After the sacrifice, the destroyed earth
spells out a SCENARIO full of wounds

then a little bit, a little more, weak cries
dance out of my chest, and are swallowed by the night breeze
I can’t love again in the start of the end
I’m missing you, an EGOIST who can’t be rescued
Sadness in the quiet night

The future which disappeared, there’s no remainder
the scene completely changed and laughs at the present time
after the sacrifice, the destroyed earth
spells out a SCENARIO full of wounds

then a little bit, a little more, weak cries
dance out of my chest, and are swallowed by the night breeze
I can’t love again in the start of the end
I’m missing you, an EGOIST who can’t be rescued
Sadness in the quiet night

aa, what this nightmare told me, I can’t laugh
and the everyday that I got used to, the sky of the town I got used to

I can’t go back again, in the beginning of the end
clinging to something, The loneliness fades away
sadness in the quiet night

 

CREVASSE

 

When I stretched my hand out you were there
In my heart, you were still there

why did you tell me we had to separate?
even now I still don’t understand

In the end, in this world, my thoughts are running
in the colourless scenery
repeats of you
the tears of time reawaken it
it can pass by as if nothing ever happened
But I can’t just forget it
I resurrect the colours

When I stretched my hand out you were there
In my heart, you were still there

bit by bit, the days passed
gently, the sunlight starts to shine

the tears of time reawaken it
it can pass by as if nothing ever happened
the tears of time bloom a flower
I start to recall all the beautiful memories
that sunlight is the same as the flower’s colour
and I still see you clearly

 

Age 18

 

Without even getting a say in the rules that adults decided
Only anger and emptiness came up in my chest
Though my anxiety won’t disappear, I’m always chasing after a dream,
While shaking with loneliness, there’s no limit in the blank future

I hold onto this vague course and advance forward
Without knowing anything, I believed in the uncertain tomorrow

I should run to the place where I can shine with my friends
I longed for that beautiful scenery in these hands
But it’s hard to live for yourself honestly
To get through a lifetime, strength isn’t enough
Because I’m not alone even if I part from you
Just don’t forget the promise, and dream of tomorrow

My thoughts overflow and I believe in these unstoppable feelings

Don't be sorry when I can’t come back again
I’ll let all I can do loose now
Because if you desire strongly enough, you can get closer in a dream
So that you don’t lose anybody, try to dream

I hold onto this vague course and advance forward
I believed in the uncertain tomorrow, without losing my way

These overflowing thought, this unstoppable beat
Even if the time and years flow by, I still won’t forget
I’ll carry on holding this unchanging dream

 

Love tripper

 

Do my clogged feelings reach you through this song?
I dedicate it to you on the other side of the universe now
At that time, I was too childish, you made me grieve you
There was too much pain in the gentleness you gave
It still remains in my heart now

I lost you, who was by my side from back then
Because time completely heals both "pain” and" "loneliness"

I get the warmth from you from long ago
Just hold me in a dream at least

I lost you, who was by my side from back then
Because time completely heals both "pain” and" "loneliness"

Do my clogged feelings reach you through this song?
If I close my eyes, you’re floating there
I get the warmth from you from long ago
Just hold me in a dream at least
Always always always always

 

~lulu~

 

as they float in the blue night, the stars start to ask
“why do you always smile with that lonely seeming face?”

with my powerlessness, I wanted to cry, but
In my chest, in my heart, there are wings

when I close my eyes, show me the wind blowing through the town
and I’ll leave myself to this soft breeze lalalulalula…

gently, softly, now completely changes to the past
and some time, we’ll meet the end of time, right?

can I love this me?
this person, this star, can I love them?

strongly pray, wish, for the glittering days, the neverending dream
In the room, the morning sun rises, and I come to my senses, lalalulalula…

 

Dogma

 

Come, sharpen your sense of vision
Come, sharpen your sense of hearing

Before commitment

Come, sharpen your five senses
Come, shall we slip out of this darkness?
Come, Welcome the sixth sense
Come, The highest grade of fear attacks

 

Gianism 7

 

I’ll show my completely unique figure here and now
That existence is the one and only in this world

Nothing but guys who don’t have themselves gather after all
So if I wake up now, there should still be time

What do I feel? what do I want?

Hide it in your chest and your soul will take the decisive action
You can exceed the possibilities you need
Carry the pride

even trivial matters, you make fun of
Whatever kind of boos I take, in my heart I won’t be confused
Get hold of the feelings of regret, for the power of tomorrow

I’ll carry on showing my own good faith and preparedness
I’ll go through the ideas that I imagined

Invite anger and embrace it in your chest

To the limit of forgetfulness, I’ll carve my name in this earth

Hide it in your chest and your mind will take decisive action
You can exceed the necessary possibilities
Carry the pride

 

Muzzle muzzle muzzle

 

A few minus thoughts, the things I see tomorrow are also painful, still no good,
In the stream of time, struggling to the place I left my body. where?

I’m searching for something
I can’t go back. Wandering wounds dried on this heart

Living tomorrow in a hurry
I can’t turn back
I was stained in vain

From here on, finally it’s the start of truth, searching for my whereabouts
To be myself, I have to keep on running with all my might, run run run

I’m searching for something, wandering wounds
This heart has dried up, I can’t go back

Living tomorrow in a hurry
I can’t turn back
I was stained in vain

Nobody should still remain
Even if everything rots away
To the place where there should be "a heart"

 

 

M-aria

 

I always remember an unrequited love from 2 years ago whenever I look up at the moon
It was a miserable end.
But hey, If I think about it now, it was already decided when I met you
It was just a flower that doesn’t bloom

There was no way that sudden ringing of the telephone was you
I should have already forgot about it.

But even if I want to embrace the crying you with these hands
I can’t reach…My love only makes you miserable
Now, the clouds are filled with a hidden burst of tears
Grieving in the grey sky of "clear skies after cloudiness"

the moon and Maria, just things that my hands can’t reach
Sinking in depression with this familiar request, it’s a bad habit
In solitude, the corner of the room became bitterly cold
It still repeats today

But even if I want to embrace the separated you with these hands
I can’t reach…My love only makes you miserable
Now, the clouds are filled with a hidden burst of tears
Grieving in the grey sky of "clear skies after cloudiness"

Maria of the moon my tears yearn for you
Becoming rain, they fall from the sky and soak me

Aria of the moon this desire can’t be told only through poetry
Does my song reach you?

the moon and Maria, just things that my hands can’t reach
Sinking in depression with this familiar request, it’s a bad habit
In solitude, the corner of the room became bitterly cold
It still repeats today

aa, “this evening the moon is especially beautiful isn‘t it"
That kind of talk is just annoying
aah, because I can forgot until the 7th of July* this year...

*Every year on 7th July is the Tanabata (or star) festival. The two lovers (stars) Altair and Vega, which are usually separated from each other by the milky way, can meet. 

 

Morpho

 

The days when I travel, without planning to go
Nothing but pretense, glorified with decorations, in this town
Though there is no actual form or shadow, there‘s still something to seize in your chest right?
The butterfly with blue wings now, rose into the sky right before my eyes
And that’s it, it’s a nothing special everyday scene
It carries no meaning, but a hint is being hidden
And if you find it, something should change

I was damaging that person, I hurt that person
In those days I tried to defend my body, spilling lies

I always combined our pace, pushed myself into a mould I can’t mix with

Only hard feelings overflow and I’m scared I gradually won’t be able to move
About the things I locked away, I want to cry now
I quietly put the ALBUM away, now, I’ll search for new scenery
I don’t need an adaptation of the same photograph
Because I don't want to hurt anyone, I put it all away in my heart
And I know that nothing will change, but
Even though my head understands, My body doesn’t move with my thoughts
I couldn’t like this kind of ‘me’

Tomorrow’s tomorrow, and the tomorrow after, it’s just repetition of the same days
It’s boring isn’t it? To live when you can’t see the meaning
It’s amazing it‘s such a common thing, and I don’t like spelling the words
But I’ll leave them here, Because there’s a time when I’ll need them

 

Black sick Spider

 

Complete darkness spreads, dyed in black, I see this sad world’s end
Entertained in threads of CHAOS, the SPIDER slips out, hunting butterfly’s wings

I tell DRAMATIC ideals
This vice of boasting won’t stop, and even now that won’t change

I want to hide my ugly body
It’s been decorated with the wings I plucked off
Beautiful speckles, the colour of life
I’ve lost something, something’s broken

While frozen, I’m scared in this darkness
Even though I have everything
In this world, I am alone
And I can’t return to the clear skies

Tsuki no hikari utsutsu no yume

 

Leaving my body in time, I follow the thread of memories

the season that chilly wind blows, loneliness begins to overflow, and burns in my chest

Your figure grows hazy in a blur
Don’t disappear into the darkness
The light of the moon becomes more radiant
And Illuminates it

The tears stream down my cheeks, spilling over and falling through "time"

I follow you looking back on the days of last mutual thoughts

I wished to the bottom of the sea of stardust
A fragment of sorrow fell, dancing

Far away far away, Even if I’m separated
I should see the same moon
Only my heart will be next to you

Your figure grows hazy in a blur
Don’t disappear into the darkness
The light of the moon becomes more radiant
And Illuminates it

I’ll continue searching for you
I walk the journey of a far away "time"
I pass through the spiral of separation and encounters
To carry these feelings

 

Kimi to ita kisetsu

 

Dead leaves dance onto the avenue, the arrival of winter is close,
This kind of scenery was reflected, just like that time
Resurrecting the pure and innocent past, resurrecting the autumn where you were

And, from that, I lost the light
Even your face is hazy and I can’t remember it
I didn't run after you, I killed that feeling
Was that God’s judgement to me…?

What does this rotating season want from me, what is there to take?
I’m bewildered in the blank space of time
Snow falls, piling up

The last of your afterimage still doesn’t disappear
Those eyes which stared at me are branded deeply
The thing reflected in my eyes, I can’t stop regretting it
The needle of the clock won’t advance

What does this rotating season want from me, what is there to take?
I’m bewildered in the blank space of time
The snow won’t stop

The brilliant scenery where you were withers away without a trace
I see a flower that doesn’t bloom again
I vow
"I’ll carry this guilt, and believe you won‘t ever return"